Sunday, June 23, 2013

A QUICK RELEASE !!!!!

These last few days have been very heavy !!!! anxiety, depression, uncontrollable  mood swings but today i feel a new !!! I woke up with the understanding of myself cause i rarely snap!! i hold alot in to satisfy others but when i snap i need to be understood period.
I believe in excepting people for who they are not what they are, cause you can change what but who you are is just that, now lets see what comes with that !!
My motivation comes from god period, never was i the one to be told everything gonna be OK or you can do it !!!! KNOWONE HAS EVER SAID THAT TO ME BUT GOD HELPED ME UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING IS HERE FOR ME AND IT'S UP TO ME TO GET IT !!!
being alone for most all of my life. Never really having a shoulder to cry on, Knowone to give me a dollar to eat but still having their hands out to me !!!
Sadly i remember laying on my death bed, about 6 years ago needing a medicine that cost 70 bucks, i was bed ridden so i couldn't get the money myself. i picked up my phone calling over 200 people and not 1 person put a dollar towards saving my life. i had to get outta bed { CAUSE I WASN'T GOING OUT LIKE THAT } and put myself out there just to save my own life !! outta everything i been through in my life from rape, being beaten, used that's the day i knew i was alone no matter who says they have my back is BULLSHIT!!! I HAVE MY BACK BY GOD !!! THAT WAS A TEST FROM GOD AND EVERYONE FAILED ME. EXCEPT GOD GIVING ME STRENGTH TO GET UP !!
I'm still here strong, beautiful & blessed ! I don't need to make up a false life to get attention i don't like to much attention lol. Everything i have done in my life is because i am worth something .
Because Tasha put her mind to it ! Never was i one to pick up the phone asking & i don't till this day !
I am survivor period & will continue to do so till i take my last breathe !

THE WEEK AFTER I ALMOST DIDNT MAKE IT !!!

 3YEARS LATER OMW TO 40 ACHERS & A MULE !!!

GOD IS GOOD


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